Yesterday I was really into hanging around and reading the discussions at that one online forum I paritcipate.
I got all caught up with my assignments for the creative course of said forum and started working on next week’s assignment.
The assignment had a worksheet to fill out.
SO hard.
I struggled to answer all the questions and at some point I had an insight – yeeesss! – on why I was getting so stuck on things!
I wrote all down on the worksheet, run out of room and jumped into my journal.
I pour it all out and to summarize there was my huge-ground-breaking insight:
Notice that it was such a powerful insight that I cross out the “need” which sounded much like an “at some point” and decided to make it a NOW action.
I really felt stoked by my finding.
THAT is why I am stuck lately! I keep questioning my gut feelings.
I feel something is right but doubt it and end up doing nothing!
ooooohhhh excitement!! 😀 Really…. that IS light at the end of the tunnel! Making choices!
NOW I AM ROCKING ALL AROUND! hehehehe
Sure thing the awareness is only the first step. Watching my mind-tricks to pull me into old patterns will be the challenge.
The day after my ground-breaking insight I was talking to a friend and during the conversation I realized how hard it is for me to settle within the “I don’t know or I am figuring out” area, you know?
I always had someone to tell me what to do if I didn’t know {“that’s how we had always done that”} or what direction to go – {“this is the best route for sure! Why wouldn’t someone want that?”} or I would at least believe I already had the answer and I would just go for it.
Sitting with the “I don’t know, I am experimenting, I am figuring it out”, is very new.
I hadn’t practise my “trust-my-self” muscles in years and all of a sudden I realize I need to exercise them and I did so. They feel sore. Very sore.
But I see now that it is a good sore you know? Like after working out at the gym.
Very happy with my insight. 😀
That insight paired with my quest on ignoring my perfectionism and I will find my ways to unstuck and move forward! <3
*** happy all around ***
Love, love, love
oh, great! Now besides messing my fonts now there are some frames around the pictures that weren’t there before :-/ What’s going on with my blog? Offended that I am thinking of moving? Or just trying to make me move quicker? 😀
Frames appear when you add captions to pictures…. And may be take a look at my You Tube video on moving Word text to blogger in a few easy steps https://youtu.be/GnDogkUm1p8
I find that putting in spiritual work leads to greater self-trust. A person cannot live on bread alone.
@steve Thank you for the link Steve! I will try it out!@innvestigators yessss! So very true!!!!